Ironman panic

I’m 6 weeks out from my 1^st half Ironman. I’m going to need to swim 1.2 miles, bike 56 miles, and then run 13.1….and I am starting to panic!!! The bad thing about having a big event like this in March is that training should get started back in October….and it did….however the eating right part never really happened for me. I went on vacation in October ate and drank like it, then my birthday was in November and  being lucky enough to have good friends….I celebrated all month long, then there was Thanksgiving, Christmas and New years where I once again drank too much and ate yummy stuff. So all that to say….I didn't lose the weight I wanted to and am now feeling fat  and not in nearly good enough shape to rock a 70.3 mile event. Oh well. 

Tomorrow I need to pull off all 3 distances...so that means about 8/9 hours of solid workout...I'm pretty sure I'll be eating an entire cow by end of day...right before passing out....preferably in an ice bath so I can actually move on Sunday. 

I've been told by one or two people that I deliberately let the weight stack up on my bones to  keep men from looking at me and wanting me...I don't know if that's right or not but Wow...losing it is a pain. For whatever reason I haven't been able to get these pounds off and keep them off. But I've decided that this is the year it's gonna happen...this is the year I'll be able to look at myself in the mirror and think..."Damn I'm one hot sexy lady!!!" :) 

Step one...make it through tomorrow without dying. Step two...fuck step two...just get through tomorrow and then we'll talk.  I hope you all have a great weekend.